This is for the broken hearted. I know how you feel. Empty, betrayed, and no happiness whatsoever. You don't want to laugh, because you know it's not going to help, but you don't want to cry, because it will just make you feel worse. You feel like your heart is falling apart, but not only that, but you know soon your life is going to feel like it's falling apart too. You don't think it will ever end, and no matter what this person has done to you, it feels impossible to stop loving them. And everyone wonders why if they have hurt you so much, then why do you still love them. That's the confusing part, you don't know why, you just do, and the people who hurt you the most, are normally the ones you love the most. And then, after a few weeks, you finally feel a sense of relief, like you're getting happy again, but you know inside that you're just going into denial. And after a few more weeks, you're back to where you were an empty soul and teary eyes. You thought you got over them, but really, you just stopped showing it. And you can't help but to show it again. It leaves deep scars on your heart that are there forever. And no one understands how you feel, and how deep you are hurt, no matter who they are, because it hasn't happened to them And even if it has, every broken heart is different. They don't know the true pain you feel and carry each and everyday now, so you learn that basically you are alone with all this. And the feeling starts to overwhelm you, and suddenly you just break down, right there, because you know you've had enough, the tears just instantly start flowing, and you're to the point where you don't care who see's. Because you've spent so many nights lying awake in bed, and so many days being haunted by the scars and fear of rejection. And in the midst of all these tears, you know that its not helping any, and it's not going to bring them back, if you ever even had them in the first place. After about a million tears have been cried, you finally pull yourself back together and keep going. Your throat starts to clench and your eyes burn with the tears you are trying to hold back. Everyone says, "It will be okay…” But you know it won't. And that’s the truth, it won’t. And you look back on all of the hurt you had from this, and you realize that people are horrible. You're still hurt, but you've learned to hide it so that everyone thinks you are okay. So now every time you see this person, you know you still love them, and you feel a slight tingle in your heart yearning for them to love you, screaming out, but for some reason they don't hear it. And then you sit back and wonder how one person could have caused all of this...

NoboDy..

Nobody knows its empty
this smile that i wear...
the real one is left in the past
because u hav left me there...?!!?

Nobody knows i m crying
they wont see even my tears...
when they think thai i m laughing
i still wishing u were here... ?!!?

Nobody knows it's painful
they think that i m strong...
they say that this wont kil me
but i wander if they were wrong... ?!!?

Nobody knows i m praying
that u will change my mind...
they think that i let u go
when u left me behind... ?!!?

Nobody knows i miss u
they think i feel set free...
but i feel like i m bound with chains
trapeed in the mystery... ?!!?

Nobody knows i need u
they say that i can do it my own...
but" they dont know i m crying.

im Not Angry..

I'm not angry because we broke up,
I'm sad because I can't let you go..
I'm not angry at you for not loving me,
I'm angry with me for still loving you..
I'm not angry that I lost you,
I'm sad because I once had you..
I'm not angry that I can't have you,
I'm sad because I know what I'm missing..
I'm not angry that you've moved on,
I'm sad because I can't..
I'm not angry that you won't come back,
I'm sad because I keep hoping you will..
I'm not angry because I hate you and don't want to,
I'm sad because I miss you and I love you..

i Love u Mom

Mom, There is none like you in this whole wild world
You are special and so dear to me
You've loved me from the day I was born
Even though I am a woman now
You never stopped loving me
You still call me your baby

When the whole world is against me
I run to you 
And you are always there with arms wide open 
Ready to catch me when I fall
Ready to wipe my tears away when I cry
Ready to cheer me up when I feel down
You are so special mum
You understand me more than anyone else

You are not rich like other mothers
Who buys their daughter expensive things
You are simple but yet you are wise
I love you for the fact that you love me
And you have showed your love 
Through the very little things you do
Love is not about money
But it's about feelings
And you have showed that to me

You are my hero Mom
Through the good and bad days of our lives
You make sure we can get by each day
With the little we have
Mom, You are strong 
You have great vision and hope
When I see you I see a Hero
A true hero


Mom, Nothing will ever stop me from loving you
No one will ever love me the way you do
And no one will even know how to be you
You're one and unique to me
I love you Mom
With all my heart.

I'll Do

ARE YOU GOING TO BE REALLY BE LIKE THAT?

ARE YOU REALLY LEAVING?

THERE WAS NO INDICATION OF THIS

WHY ARE YOU SUDDENLY DOING THIS?

TELL ME IT’S NOT TRUE

TELL ME THAT YOU WERE LYING

SMILE AND TALK LIKE  YOU USED TO

JUST DO THAT FOR ME

HOW COUL YOU DO THIS TO ME ?

I’M TRYING NOT TO LET YOU GO

NOW I SEE YOU’RE PUSHING ME AWAY..

WE MIGHT REALLY BE BREAKING UP..

I HATE PEOPLE LIKE YOU..

I DON’T WANT SOMEONE LIKE YOU..

SOMEONE WHO LEFT ME CRYING..

EVEN IF I HATE YOU

I LIKE YOU..

EVEN IF I DON’T WANT YOU

I DO.

BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I DO

I’LL LOVE YOU..I’LL DO WHATEVER YOU WANT ME TO DO

I WON’T BE ANGRY OR COMPLAIN

SAY U’LL  STAY WITH ME THAT’S ALL I NEED TO BE HAPPY

BECAUSE  NO MATTER WAHT I DO I’LL LOVE

 A GIRL LIKE ME CAN’T LET GO OF LOVE EASILY

 EVEN THOUGH YOU LEFT ME SO COLDLY

I STILL WILL NOT FORGET I 

Ku Yakin Adanya hari Esok,, kerana Engkau Ada..

Bapa meski jalan hidup ku masih jauh..

 meski terdapat seribu persoalan dalam hidup ku..

meski ku tau punya banyak cabaran di depan ku ..

meski hidup ku tidak punya cerita – cerita hebat seperti orang lain ..

meski ku tidak punya cara terbaik untuk menyenangkan hati mu..

meski aku selalu buat hati mu sedih dengan pelangaran ku..

meski ku sentiasa lupa akan kehadiran mu dalam hidupku..

 meski saat sedih selalu membelengu hidup ku..

 meski tidak tidak akan ada jalan yang ku lihat terbuka bagi setiap masalah ku dan segala sesuatu seakan – akan tertutup bagi ku....

Pada saat itu aku pasti ENGKAU tidak pernah meninggalkan ku ENGKAU selalu punya cara.. dengan jalan hidup ku yang masih jauh, kerna rencanaMU melebihi daripada apa yang dapat ku Fikirkan..

 engkau menghibur ku dalam setiap persoalan yang ada ,

meski ku tidak punya cerita hebat seperti orang lain, hati ku yakin yang engkau mencintai ku kerana engkau mencipta ku menurut gambar dan rupa MU...

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ARE YOU GOING TO BE REALLY BE LIKE THAT?

ARE YOU REALLY LEAVING?

THERE WAS NO INDICATION OF THIS

WHY ARE YOU SUDDENLY DOING THIS?

TELL ME IT’S NOT TRUE

TELL ME THAT YOU WERE LYING

SMILE AND TALK LIKE  YOU USED TO

JUST DO THAT FOR ME

HOW COUL YOU DO THIS TO ME ?

I’M TRYING NOT TO LET YOU GO

NOW I SEE YOU’RE PUSHING ME AWAY..

WE MIGHT REALLY BE BREAKING UP..

I HATE PEOPLE LIKE YOU..

I DON’T WANT SOMEONE LIKE YOU..

SOMEONE WHO LEFT ME CRYING..

EVEN IF I HATE YOU

I LIKE YOU..

EVEN IF I DON’T WANT YOU

I DO.

BECAUSE NO MATTER WHAT I DO

I’LL LOVE YOU..I’LL DO WHATEVER YOU WANT ME TO DOI WON’T BE ANGRY OR COMPLAIN

SAY U’LL  STAY WITH ME THAT’S ALL I NEED TO BE HAPPY BECAUSE  NO MATTER WAHT I DO I’LL LOVE A GIRL LIKE ME CAN’T LET GOOF LOVE EASILY EVEN THOUGH YOU LEFT ME SO COLDLY

I STILL WILL NOT FORGET I STILL WANT TO WAIT REGARDLESS OF WHAT ANYONE SAYS YOU ARE MY MAN AND I’M YOUR GIRL

I realized something, serving the Lord, not all of what we want we will get.sometimes God wants us to learn something .. maybe there is a painfultime, because we must leave our interest ... all things that can make ushappy, and be not the same as everyone else. but God, help me tosurvive, in the most painful ..