Dear Lord. I'm not at peace with myself. I always feel like I'm not good enough, like I'm not worthy of the best. I'm to focused on my failures,my imperfections,my insecurities. I try to think positive and concentrate on all the wonderful things you have planned but the cynical part of me always drowns out the good. My Father you know that in the past I've been hurt and torn down by words. I don't want to live my life believing that I don't matter, that I'm not valuable. My Father God I know you treasure me, that to You I'm far more precious than jewels. But why is the bad stuff so much easier to believe? Sweet Lord, please help me conquer my insecurities and help restore my self esteem. Amen

That’s it I have enough to trying to make this right
When it’s my hatred of you that gives me my life
So I will say my prayers before I go to sleep
And you can be sure you won’t be in my dream

Now if you look at the clock you’ll see the time has run out
You was full of confusion and I was full of doubt
But it’s all over now so go and ask god for break
For I’m not going until you’ve took all you can take

You were planning a future while I was going mad
This is beyond stupid this is beyond bad
We were barely able to talk about our pasts
So almost without you knowing it was over so fast

There are hearts that are sweeter than the one you gave
Hearts that would be satisfied by the heart I made
So take your words that are worthless and leave
Because when you are here I cannot breathe

You know that you will be one of my cherished lovers
But don’t be naive and think there were no others
I have lost my mind and I have lost my pity
As you didn’t have anything left to give to me

Thank you for the daily pain and nightly agony
Thank you for everything you never did for me
Thank you for hurting me so that I would Forget you
Thank you for all the poor quality memories
Thank you for the little bittersweet brutalities
Thank you for hurting me so that I would Forget you..