panda yang kiut!!!!

SORRY??

why don't u realize??? do u think that when u say SORRY will make everything in place??

think about it again do u really LOVE me or just make some fun?? i already tell u everything about me

With HOPE that u will UNDERSTAND and wait until im ready cuz u oso know how much i been HURT by my Love Story, how can i trust and give my heart to you when u even can't wait when im ready??... but u just LIKE me and NOT LOVE me.. u know why?? because LOVE WILL WAIT UNTIL THE RITE TIME... but i want to ask u did u wait??? the answer is NO... u walk away just like my EX do..let me feel alone, let me face everything alone, u let me feel the warm and u let me feel COLD tooo..  i don't even ask u to come in my life and i don't even ask u to leave, but u come and go in my life just like that.. im not a DOLL...  u know what is the PAINFUL PART?? at some part u make me feel like Queen BUT suddenly u make feel worthless just like RUBBISH, ever nite waitng for fall sleep and my pillow was my best Friend to wipe my tears AND i pray every nite so that GOD WILL BLESS YOU and hope that u'll feel that u have hurt me with same reason like my EX do, u don't even tell me when u go to UPSI sy sedar la jga sepa la sy kn??... . and U COME BACK WHEN I FIND MY STRENGTH TO STAND UP ALONE.. i just want to let u now that im Fine now and i can do more without anyoNe .... do u happy?? the ANSWER IS YESS..   u can eat well, u can sleep well and u are MORE...MORE...MORE  HAPPY NOW... u g0t what u want... with ur new Friends, ur music stuff and  im sure u will be FINE WITHOUT ME.... . i don't hate u.. and i don't mad at u just feel sad cuz u don't even  realize how much i try to Give u chance.. but YOU DON'T APPRECIATE IT.. so maybe this is how it's used to be.. u will be More happy and more Bless WITHOUT ME.... LET US STOP RITE HERE PRETEND LIKE WE DON'T KNOW EACH OTHER

GOD BLESS YOU DARREL... 

Thank you Lord..

Thank you, God, for giving me another year of life.
Thank you for all the people who remembered me today
by sending cards, and letters, gifts and good wishes.

Thank you for all the experience of this past year;
for times of success which will always be happy memories,
for times of failure which reminded me of my own weakness and of my need for you,
for times of joy when the sun was shining,
for times of sadness which drove me to you.

Forgive me
for the hours I wasted,
for the chances I failed to take,
for the opportunities I missed this past year.
Help me in the days ahead to make this the best year yet,
and through it to bring good credit to myself,
happiness and pride to my loved ones,
and joy to you. Amen.

Still Hurt

if u say i was stupid for giving up with him... i just want to ask you 1 question.. If you were me, would you want to let someone you love have to love you while u know the person u LOVE THE MOST! still loves someone else? if only i have a choice but that the only way to see him happy and i know LETTING HIM GO IS THE BEST WAY.... feel free to tell other that i'm stupid Thank you so much and MAY GOD BLESS YOU ...

Miss u

I miss u alot... lma sda kta tdk jmpa kn Mr D dr cousin kta kwin lge smpi skrg xda tejmpa blk2 gaduh.. sy btl2 penat sda niii.. sy sedih.. sy sakit hati.. klu la ko dpt fhm apa yh sy rsaaa... tp sy tau ko xda peduli sda kn? 1 ja sy mau ckp sma ko len kali klu perempuan  ckp kc tinggal sy... jan ko kc tinggal sbb sbnrnya dya mau ko lbh dkt sma dya .. kdg2 xda msk akal btl sy rsa snb ko pnya umur jauh muda dr sy... sy xda tau knpa sy syg ko... tp sy janji xda mau ganggu ko sda kn.. tiap2 hri sy doa spya ko fhm sy ... spya ko sdr mcm mna sy btl2 rindu sma ko... tp sy blm sedia apa yg sy harap ko kc tgk yg ko btl2 mau sy... btl2 perlu sy tp bla kta gaduh ko lari xda ckp2 apa2 sy sedihhhh btl kna buat mcm 2... sy rsa mcm kna kc main2.. sy rsa ko xda peduli sy... ko tau knpa dlu ay tba2 hlg? Sbb sy tkt  sy kna buat mcm skrg.. sy tkt bla sy sda mula syg tuss ko hlg ... tp x pa la sy terima sja sumaaa ni..  sy mau nangissssssSssss ..... sakittttttt btl sy rsa..

I hope

I hope someone will tell u how much this love things make me down, n then i pray to God , i said " God plz don't let me fall in Love wif the wrong guy" but then u came and tell me that u r in Love wif me so i said "God what is this"? Then i was like no im not ready yet but day by day i tell my Friend yeyen that i was afraid to let u go..  so everyday when u stuck in my mind then i share it wif Yeyen.. and oso wif my bro ater and Leng2 And they say i will never now if i don't give a try, yes b4 this i was like.. my mouth say no u too young for me.. but my heart say i miss u but im afraid that u will do the same thing  like my EXBF do.. keep on sharing wif yeyen then she understand that im still can't let my feeling go but she know wht my feel 4 u..  then i just hope that u will understand my situation but still make some effort to make me trust ur feel for me.. but i guess im just dreaming that u will be True to me..   i was wrong.. no one will love me, no one will be true to me.. but 1 day i hope u will know how i feel for u..  but maybe the day u realize that.. maybe i have move on  and let u go for the rest of my life, someday i'll but u not the reason anymore.. 4get about u 4get about us.. 4get about everything that hurt me so much.. and Thank you for make me cry every nite .. and i hope u will be happy for make me feel this way...  u have no idea how i feel..  thank you for remove my pic wif ... u know what i hope u say to me when u call me ? I LOVE U u never say those words u only say i miss u...  but i guess it over now.. i will stop here.. and let u go.. i admit that i have no rite to ask u to stay wif me.. no matter how much i care or explain to you  i can see that u r not hear what im saying..  "dear lord i ask u to bless him and all i ask u to make him happy  amen" I'LL BE FINE  BUT NOT FOR TODAY...

Pain!

Thank you for give me more pain and thank you for hurting me..
If u really in love with me u will never let me face my problem alone
Go and ask other women are they like the way u solve the problem between us?  If we have a little fight and u go just like that without msg or call me?? U make me think that why every guy in mylife use the same way to treat me? Am i a toy? Or u just want make some fun?? Or  am i STUPID to trust u that U LOVE ME??  GOD pls ... plssssssss  take away everthing inside me all burden, hurt, pain.. God im sorry for asking this.. why no 1 be true to me? Why is everything so hard for me? Why i must face it? U know every nite im crying.. and i oso fail for my intview.. and so much pain in my body.. i can't take it anymore..  i can't stand the pain when ppl still blame me for let my ex go..  Lord plsss ...plsss and plsss hug me now i need u.. cuz no one will care for what i feel..  plss ...plsss take this pain away from me...