if only i can choose..

i don't like the word "if only" coz  i would say .. if only i get a gud result.. if only i can be singer.. if only... this..if only that.. but it just a dream that never be come true.. but the most hurt me is .. if only i can have u in my life.. but with someone that u love.. and i knw u love me.. but u can let she go.. and if only i can choose.. i choosE never knw u.. coz knwing u in my life is.. create a new pain.. and i just can cry..