cRying..

I'm stand still
wondering
why my heart feel uncomfortable?


Like ocean it's being ripple inside
Wave take away the sand and
Bring it back again over and over
when the tide getting ebb, some is taken away


Longing
Is this it?


I take it in my heart with 1000 joy
hope it soar and light the sky
But suddenly winter fairy reach inside
My world become frozen


Speechless...
Something steal my tongue
Left me by my own


I close my eyes and I feel it
The arm of sadness embracing me around
Like blanket of ice
it is freeze my tears


Why it did not let me cry?
When tears is helper for reducing pain
When emotion in jeopardy to turn into beast inside
I need it more than anything else


Please God, allow me to cry.
I'm afraid of myself when I couldn't cry.