Lord, thank you for Your unfailing love, for a love that has comforted me when I have fallen short, when I've made mistakes, when everything has fallen apart. I've constantly taken my life into my hands and I have failed. Father, I don't want to stumble anymore, direct my footsteps according to Your word. Teach me to follow You. Give me understanding to discern Your ways from mine. Turn my eyes from worthless things that will only distract me from walking in your ways. My Father I have so many plans for my life, plans that only You know if they will succeed or not, so I surrender them to You. You know what I long for, what my heart hopes for; lead me, show me the way. I want to honor You with my decisions, with my plans, with my life. Amen.

Go Away!

i like to see the rain.. coz it make me peace deep inside my heart, 

but the true is something happen inside me while see the rain fall down

somthing can't say with words.. i feel peace but want to cry..

few month ago something happen and until now i don't

know am i strong enough to stand again...

i cry to many night

i have too much pain.. no one will understand..

yes im smiling,  even laugh..  coz it was the easy way

then to tell Ppl why am i crying... 

and to many night i was asking God why it happen to me??

why??? me?? admit that i was in Love with HIM... 

and until now i can't get over HIM!!

i miss u... missu so damm much!!

and i was praying every single nite ask god to bless u and ur Girlfriend..

and i was asking wif my self why u come in to my life  if the is the way u 

left me?.. u said that u don't love ur ex anymore... then why u go back with her??

and u said to me that u will wait for me until God make us one..

but then where is ur promise???

i have trust u more than u ever know.. no one will understand the feeling is :'( 

just hate this feeling ... 

Why i cry?

You’re the reason why I cry

The way I'm feeling

It's quite hard to describe

I feel so alone and lost

In this unbearable life

Too many twisted emotions

My stomach all tied in knots

Wish there was something I could do

To completely erase all these thoughts

How long must I feel this pain

I've cryed so many tears

I can't stand looking in your eyes

Only to see all of my fears

How can you believe the smile on my face

When you can clearly see the pain in my eyes

Take a step back and look deeper

You're the reason why I cry

Heavenly Father, thank you for seeing in me what I cannot. I struggle with accepting the fact that I am worthy. Worthy of a godly man, a godly relationship, of your love. I desire all the best but always aim and settle for less. Your word says I'm worth more than rubies, I'm chosen, royalty; yet I feel ordinary, simple, insignificant. I want to see myself through Your eyes; through the eyes of my Maker, my Father, my Savior. I want to believe I'm worth it.