I hope

I hope someone will tell u how much this love things make me down, n then i pray to God , i said " God plz don't let me fall in Love wif the wrong guy" but then u came and tell me that u r in Love wif me so i said "God what is this"? Then i was like no im not ready yet but day by day i tell my Friend yeyen that i was afraid to let u go..  so everyday when u stuck in my mind then i share it wif Yeyen.. and oso wif my bro ater and Leng2 And they say i will never now if i don't give a try, yes b4 this i was like.. my mouth say no u too young for me.. but my heart say i miss u but im afraid that u will do the same thing  like my EXBF do.. keep on sharing wif yeyen then she understand that im still can't let my feeling go but she know wht my feel 4 u..  then i just hope that u will understand my situation but still make some effort to make me trust ur feel for me.. but i guess im just dreaming that u will be True to me..   i was wrong.. no one will love me, no one will be true to me.. but 1 day i hope u will know how i feel for u..  but maybe the day u realize that.. maybe i have move on  and let u go for the rest of my life, someday i'll but u not the reason anymore.. 4get about u 4get about us.. 4get about everything that hurt me so much.. and Thank you for make me cry every nite .. and i hope u will be happy for make me feel this way...  u have no idea how i feel..  thank you for remove my pic wif ... u know what i hope u say to me when u call me ? I LOVE U u never say those words u only say i miss u...  but i guess it over now.. i will stop here.. and let u go.. i admit that i have no rite to ask u to stay wif me.. no matter how much i care or explain to you  i can see that u r not hear what im saying..  "dear lord i ask u to bless him and all i ask u to make him happy  amen" I'LL BE FINE  BUT NOT FOR TODAY...